The Girl Behind the Pen

coron

November 14, 2018 Coron, Palawan, Philippines

I'm Slowly Learning to Just Let Things Be

All these years, I have lived a well-planned life. Okay, mostly. I've always had my planner with me, a pen, notebook, notepad or anything that I could use for jotting down.

I want my day to be planned to avoid unfavorable circumstances. I was afraid to make mistakes for having to allow things to flow in many different ways. I want everything to go as planned. Most of the time, I succeed but there are times that I don't and it frustrates me. It takes me down. So now, I don't want to force things to happen anymore. I won't try so hard to control my life.

It's not easy but slowly, I'm learning to just let things be.

Not all the things that I want will fall into my lap but I'm sure what's meant for me will eventually find me. I'm not going to be passive but I won't fight a losing battle.

I’m trying to be patient with myself. Taking it easy on myself and my plans seem hard but it helps. I’m learning to be kind to myself when I fall while making my dreams come true.

I’m learning to forgive myself for my mistakes and let them be lessons instead of labels. I’m learning to let these mistakes prove that I’ve tried; that I didn’t always play it safe, that I went for things I was unsure of and that I took chances.

I'm slowly learning to take a longer route without caring whether I get lost because at the end of it, I know I'll find my place. I’m learning that I won’t always get what I want but life will give me what I need.

It's not easy but slowly, I'm learning to just let things be.